Friday, 13 November 2009

  • PHC.
    CHE.

    i like public health.

    i've started playing my christmas song on-repeat playlist! i love this season. and this break, my sister (and her friend.. and her other friend) might be visiting me in philly during christmas week! any of MY friends that would like to come visit me during this time is more than welcome to. i love my sister and i love her friends, but i might need some peer-interaction to offset the 18 year olds that might invade my apartment. =)

    merry almost-christmas! woooooop!

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

  • i feel an incessant need to snack.
    but i think i lost weight, even with all this intake.

    on my desk right now are 5 books. i'm reliving the good ol' days when i used to be called "bookworm". soaking up words and gaining insight.

    i hope i never stop dreaming big. i hope i never settle for a normal job with a normal life in the normal usa. whatever it is, i hope i don't stifle my convictions and passion to help the poor and underserved around the world and even in the marginalized american populations, just because it's too risky or too uncomfortable, or because i become too enamored with the life that i've had in america the past 4 1/2 years and become unwilling to throw myself out again.

    i can say this genuinely now: i am thankful that God gave me these two years "off" so i could think, and pray, and digest, and meditate, and think, and pray, and repeat. i am so thankful to have time to read the bible, and to spend quality time studying it. i am so thankful for the leisure reading times i have to learn from the experiences of those who took up the challenge to use their careers for a greater cause; for a larger purpose than to just provide for family and self; to affect real and lasting change in another person's life. i'm glad i have the time to remind my heart not to get swallowed up in MY ambitions and MY goals and MY paths.

    YOU can do it too. whatever your field, whatever your career, make it into more than just a means of sustainance for yourself and your loved ones! make the effort to find out how you can use your talents and skills to help people in need. it's so impossibly large, the amount and depth and breadth of help that is desperately sought in the rest of the Earth. ask God to challenge you, to use your life to touch others'.

    this entry was initially supposed to contain the first 2 lines only. derno how the rest slipped out...

Wednesday, 04 November 2009

  • How To Hang Out With Esther:

    Go watch Mamma Mia on Broadway, and then SIIIINGGGG WITH MEEEEEEE!


    Mamma mia, here I go again
    My my, how can I resist you?
    (music builds up)
    Mamma mia, does it show again
    My my, just how much I've missed you?
    (music escalates higher... and higher....)
    (CLIMAX) Yeeeeeeeeeeeeees, I've been broken-hearted (sing with soul! tilt head back and lift up arms for full broken-hearted effect!)
    Bluuuuuuuuuue since the day we parted (do a flip-spin into his arms)
    Why, why did I ever let you go???????
    Mamma mia, now I really know (jump-twirl, land on top step)
    My my, I should not have let you go (dramatic hair twirl)

    sigh. i love musicals. ::stares cross-eyed into the distance:: i should have just pursued my dream of... wait, i never dreamt of going to Julliard. never mind.

Tuesday, 03 November 2009

  • update on my life. i went the other extreme today (refer to previous entry for context). i'm sprawled on my couch.. eh he he.

    someone help me find the perfect balance!

  • i have a kimchi stain on my sleeve.

    the only times i do any significant moving around is when i go to the gym (which, i am proud to say, has been on a daily basis - except today! - for the past week). there are no hills that challenge my cardiovascular system. not to mention the lack of 20 minute-long walks to class. the only lifting i do are the pots and pans i use to cook, and the dishes i wash afterwards, and the laptop i carry from... the couch in the living room to the desk in the... living room.

    i also get way too much sleep per day. to the point where i find it hard to fall asleep at night. and i no longer drink coffee in the mornings and afternoons to keep me alert, but merely for the taste and because it's part of my daily ritual that i must have for it to feel like a normal day. but since i sleep so much, the coffee is making me even more sensitive when i try to fall asleep.

    my muscles feel antsy and they have a constant need to stretch or move. is it because i don't stretch and cool down properly after working out? sometimes i wanna scream at my muscles because they feel so... so... weird! i don't know how to describe it! i feel like i need to go sprint across campus (which by the way, at Jefferson, would take less than 5 minutes) and make my muscles beg for mercy. argh.

    from now on i will try:
    1. sleeping less. cut down the 8 hours to maybe 6 or 5.
    2. being more physically active! instead of studying at home, walk the 10 blocks to that coffee shop. oh, but i don't study at cafes because it costs money. i guess i'll study at home... but standing up or with my ab and butt muscles flexed!
    3. cooking more often. i did this tonight. spent almost 2 hours just now cooking up some spicy chicken thing and ended up making too much, again. guess that's it for cooking this week, since i do have enough for at least 5 meals.
    4. doing jumping jacks in minji's room. i'll scare her with my energy.
    5. forcing my brain to work faster. all this chillness and easy-school-ness has gotten to my head. my brain is becoming slower and slower with each passing day. i think i do need some stress (not cornell-level stress though) to stimulate myself.
    6. going crazy at the gym! i need to feel physically exhausted. or maybe i'll stay at my normal pace but go twice a day. or maybe i'll swim in the morning and work out at night.

    2, 3, 4, and 6 are essentially repeats of the same point. but that just proves point 5. EEEEEK!

    P.S. i'm going to see my lover this weekend.