How To Hang Out With Esther:

Go watch Mamma Mia on Broadway, and then SIIIINGGGG WITH MEEEEEEE!



sigh. i love musicals. ::stares cross-eyed into the distance:: i should have just pursued my dream of... wait, i never dreamt of going to Julliard. never mind.

the only times i do any significant moving around is when i go to the gym (which, i am proud to say, has been on a daily basis - except today! - for the past week). there are no hills that challenge my cardiovascular system. not to mention the lack of 20 minute-long walks to class. the only lifting i do are the pots and pans i use to cook, and the dishes i wash afterwards, and the laptop i carry from... the couch in the living room to the desk in the... living room.

i also get way too much sleep per day. to the point where i find it hard to fall asleep at night. and i no longer drink coffee in the mornings and afternoons to keep me alert, but merely for the taste and because it's part of my daily ritual that i must have for it to feel like a normal day. but since i sleep so much, the coffee is making me even more sensitive when i try to fall asleep.

my muscles feel antsy and they have a constant need to stretch or move. is it because i don't stretch and cool down properly after working out? sometimes i wanna scream at my muscles because they feel so... so... weird! i don't know how to describe it! i feel like i need to go sprint across campus (which by the way, at Jefferson, would take less than 5 minutes) and make my muscles beg for mercy. argh.

from now on i will try:
1. sleeping less. cut down the 8 hours to maybe 6 or 5.
2. being more physically active! instead of studying at home, walk the 10 blocks to that coffee shop. oh, but i don't study at cafes because it costs money. i guess i'll study at home... but standing up or with my ab and butt muscles flexed!
3. cooking more often. i did this tonight. spent almost 2 hours just now cooking up some spicy chicken thing and ended up making too much, again. guess that's it for cooking this week, since i do have enough for at least 5 meals.
4. doing jumping jacks in minji's room. i'll scare her with my energy.
5. forcing my brain to work faster. all this chillness and easy-school-ness has gotten to my head. my brain is becoming slower and slower with each passing day. i think i do need some stress (not cornell-level stress though) to stimulate myself.
6. going crazy at the gym! i need to feel physically exhausted. or maybe i'll stay at my normal pace but go twice a day. or maybe i'll swim in the morning and work out at night.

2, 3, 4, and 6 are essentially repeats of the same point. but that just proves point 5. EEEEEK!

P.S. i'm going to see my lover this weekend.