Friday, 08 January 2010

  • Tschusssssss

    methinks it's time to consolidate blogs. xanga, it's been a great 7 years with you; but peer pressure is hard to ignore. i've had a tumblr for a while but it's time to make my commitment complete. so bye, xanga. =3)

    p.s. i still read your xangas though! (but switch over to tumblr!)

    p.p.s. maybe i don't look like a student anymore. the other evening i didn't get carded when i went out to eat at a fancy italian restaurant. and i've received help from store employees who explained that i had to buy that certain product because "it's perfect for work!". after many many years of being able to pass as a 15-year old, i'm enjoying this new oldness =D but what changed?

    p.p.p.s. i wish i was still estherpak.xanga.com. ah haha.

     

Monday, 21 December 2009

  • the past 2 days, i've been learning that i am by all means NOT a patient person, or a selfless one either. and i get frustrated when plans fall through and when things don't go the way i want them to go and when things that i thought would happen don't happen.

    and i've also been learning that maybe i should start trying to get off my coffee addiction. i honestly can't get my brain to function at a normal pace in the morning if i skip my morning coffee(s). and my teeth might fall off in my 30s too, since i also don't have dental insurance and only go to the dentist when i'm in korea and my dad's dentist colleague forces me to come in for a checkup. blech.

    aaaand i met up with a cameroonian girl last week. we met at the church i go to here in philly, and we decided to meet up for coffee sometime. it finally happened, and hearing her share about how she's grown through her time at this church (tenth presbyterian church) encouraged me; i'm thankful to have found a solid, alive, growing church. nonetheless, i still do have to make a lot of effort to get involved. it's different to have to make the effort after having kcce baby-feed me all the resources i needed for the past 4 years. i need to be more diligent with the effort-making.

    i need to start thinking about what i want to do for my masters thesis. yikes! but also exciting! maybe this will shed some light into what i'm doing here in public health :D:D

    MERRY CHRISTMAS <3

Saturday, 05 December 2009

Friday, 13 November 2009

  • PHC.
    CHE.

    i like public health.

    i've started playing my christmas song on-repeat playlist! i love this season. and this break, my sister (and her friend.. and her other friend) might be visiting me in philly during christmas week! any of MY friends that would like to come visit me during this time is more than welcome to. i love my sister and i love her friends, but i might need some peer-interaction to offset the 18 year olds that might invade my apartment. =)

    merry almost-christmas! woooooop!

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

  • i feel an incessant need to snack.
    but i think i lost weight, even with all this intake.

    on my desk right now are 5 books. i'm reliving the good ol' days when i used to be called "bookworm". soaking up words and gaining insight.

    i hope i never stop dreaming big. i hope i never settle for a normal job with a normal life in the normal usa. whatever it is, i hope i don't stifle my convictions and passion to help the poor and underserved around the world and even in the marginalized american populations, just because it's too risky or too uncomfortable, or because i become too enamored with the life that i've had in america the past 4 1/2 years and become unwilling to throw myself out again.

    i can say this genuinely now: i am thankful that God gave me these two years "off" so i could think, and pray, and digest, and meditate, and think, and pray, and repeat. i am so thankful to have time to read the bible, and to spend quality time studying it. i am so thankful for the leisure reading times i have to learn from the experiences of those who took up the challenge to use their careers for a greater cause; for a larger purpose than to just provide for family and self; to affect real and lasting change in another person's life. i'm glad i have the time to remind my heart not to get swallowed up in MY ambitions and MY goals and MY paths.

    YOU can do it too. whatever your field, whatever your career, make it into more than just a means of sustainance for yourself and your loved ones! make the effort to find out how you can use your talents and skills to help people in need. it's so impossibly large, the amount and depth and breadth of help that is desperately sought in the rest of the Earth. ask God to challenge you, to use your life to touch others'.

    this entry was initially supposed to contain the first 2 lines only. derno how the rest slipped out...